Update: John Friend on Reorganization, Letter from Newly Appointed Anusara, Inc. CEO

This is ALSO what he said:

Letter from JohnFriend to his coven
(for those who did not see jfexposed.com)

Eerie.
Seed money from wealthy Vanderbilt benefactress to build a large center/colony?
ETC> …. worth the read! Its psycho scary – like he is trying to relive Pierre Bernards life.

Dearest BSF Coven, My Beloved Tiffany, Sisters Shakti and Devi D,

I am writing you all tonight to formally apologize for my deceptiveness around my relationship with LM. My poor judgment and misaligned energy put the whole coven, each of you and your families at risk. First of all, I attracted her into my life, into our lives, by vibrating in my mind-body with a frequency of deception and lack of integrity. I have always considered myself intelligent and clever, and so I easily could create my own world even if I had to shrewdly cut corners since I would not get caught. Of course, I have never intended to be malicious nor harming to anyone. However, I wasn’t truthful, and I was deceptive to those that I love, which created pain, confusion, and now even hatred and feelings of betrayal.

It turns out that my sexual experiences with LM are the source of her hateful energy towards me and the coven, and even Anusara. I hid my sexual relationship with LM from each of you. I seriously thought it was inconsequential to any of my other relationships. This is just one of my serious errors of judgment that I made with LM.

First of all, we come together as a coven out of perfect trust and perfect love. I trusted LM…I thought that all aspects of our intimate relationship would be used for only goodness, delight, and beauty. She trusted me. Evidently, she felt betrayed that I would be sexual with Tiffany too. I guess that from her perspective that I, the only male in the coven, the GM, and the head of the Kula, was so deceptive and powerful that all the women in the coven would be become one of my many concubines! She evidently extrapolated this notion because she sensed that my energy was going to both her and Tiffany, and that I was not being completely open with either woman. So, she figured that I would be so deceiving to every woman that was close to me. She saw me deceive Christy, so was a unbroken pattern that she was observing. Then you add a lack of communication from me and the coven, other negative rumors about me sparked by Michael and Tanya Phelan after the New Year’s Day at their house, the Mahashivaratri performance in San Fran, the Art Happening in LA, and probably from Jeff, my PA, who also betrayed me this year….and it all leads to LM’s vampire novel imagination conjuring JF, the GM, as the next Aleister Crowley or Pierre Arnold Bernard! The Texas Tantrick Guru is the Big Bad Wolf in Magick cloaks taking innocent girls from their faithful husbands and wrecking families to drink the juices of Little Red Ridinghoods. WOW!

Are you kidding me?! This is the real life 21st century yoga world which is about to become globally broadcast. History spins in spirals too….In San Francisco in 1906 the mystical western Tantrick, Pierre Bernard was arrested by the police and charged with ‘morals violations, hypnotism’, and ‘soul charming’ on complaints by two young women. The police investigated but could not substantiate the claims. Thus, the charges were dropped, though the newspaper stories were scandalous and the story was widely spread. It was one reason that Bernard moved to Manhattan to escape the uproar in the San Fran society. Bernard next made an appearance in the scandal pages in New York in 1910, again as a subject of an investigation by the police based on complaints by two young women. This time Bernard was accused of abduction…The Wolf steals away the little Red Ridinghood. The two women accusers had been students of Bernard and had served as “nautch girls”, a female form of apprenticeship in his Tantrik school ,”The Temple of Mystery”, which operated under a number of different names, another of which was the New York Sanskrit College. The police arrested Bernard and he spent up to five months in the notorious New York City jail “the tombs”. Journalists had a field day with Bernard and his alleged “love cult”. The story ran on the front page of many newspapers for days in a row in May of 1910 as readers followed the story of the mysterious “Oom the Omnipotent” and the girls he had kidnapped to serve as sex slaves in his oriental sanctum. In the end the case never went to trial. At the preliminary hearing, with Bernard in the room, the two women refused to testify, thus embarrassing the District Attorney. The New York press reported that Bernard held such mental power over the girls, and glared at them so intently during the hearing, that they were reduced to tears on the stand and thus could not testify. The case was dismissed, the women fled the state, and Bernard, with a new name and reputation, went back to his esoteric activities in New York. At the New York Sanskrit College, Bernard taught courses specializing in hatha yoga, Sanskrit, health and religion which attracted many prominent people including many socialites, some from America’s most famous families, and businessmen. It was natural because of the prominence of the people that came to these establishments and the then unusual nature of the teachings that there should be complaints to the authorities about them. Once Bernard was arrested for simply teaching Sanskrit, the police evidently considered the language occult and therefore open for suspicion. As Bernard once described himself, “…I’m just a curious combination of the business man and the religious scholar”. While still in New York, and again under mysterious circumstances, Bernard met and married Blanche De Vries, a dancer, interior decorator, and yoga teacher in her own right, with whom he shared his life and the management of the Clarkstwon Country Club until his death at age 80 in 1955. De Vries by all accounts was a remarkable woman and teacher–she taught yoga in New York until the early 1980s, and had a highly developed sense of art and beauty. If Bernard was a scholar, De Vries was an artist, the two complimenting the others talents perfectly in the creation of that unique institution that was the CCC. Legend has it that the “seed money” needed by Bernard to buy the properties for the establishment of his “rest colony” in Nyack came from very high sources, perhaps from Anne Harriman Rutherford Vanderbilt, second wife of William K. Vanderbilt II. In 1920 the Bernard’s purchased for more than $100,000 a 76-acre estate in Upper Nyack for the purpose of founding a club specializing in the study of “physical culture”. Some Nyack citizens, once the club was established, spied on their new neighbors, but reportedly the most exotic thing they ever saw were club members clad in modest gym suits doing gymnastics. The early CCC, like Bernard’s previous establishments, was raided by the police on several occasions, usually as a result complaints filed by neighbors of it being a “love cult”. On the contrary the club’s atmosphere was almost puritanical in nature. For example, no intoxicating substances, especially liquor, was allowed on the grounds. There was an insistence on modest appearance and a requirement that all residents, no matter their social station, should attend to themselves. As Bernard himself once said when asked about the purpose of the club, “…this ain’t no love cult here. Just a bunch of people in love with beauty and books.” And, “Some folk like to spout a lot of Sanskrit terms like Prana, Pranayama, and Karma and what not, as if there were some virtue in foreign words, but it would do their souls a power more good to be on a course of household drudgery, scrubbing floors and so forth…because the first step towards merging with Brahm or God or the Infinite or the Universal Spirit or whatever you like to call it, is a sympathetic understanding of one’s fellow men. The background of true Yoga is not book-lore or metaphysics, but character. Without character all the book-lore and metaphysics are sounding brass and tinkling symbols.”

The CCC would really an ashram. Here is a description from the CCC’s own publication of 1935 “Life: at the Clarkstown Country Club”, “This is much more than a country club, it is a place where an attempt is made to translate the business of living into art. It provides every form of country life enjoyment, and at the same time offers facilities for the further development of the individual, a “new deal” in both body and mind. Here the ideal is expressed in terms of balanced living, in contrast to the lop-side development so current these days.” In its heyday the CCC counted 400 members and occupied 260 acres and 15 buildings at two different sites in Nyack. There were six tennis courts, in and outdoor swimming pools, guest houses, elaborate gardens, a miniature zoo, a cabin cruiser on the Hudson and a sports stadium (with night lighting), a theater (the Inner Circle Theater), a lecture hall (the Open Forum), two gymnasiums, billiard and cards rooms, a play-room for children, music and artist studios, a powerful rooftop telescope and the famed library. The Open Forum, a series of lectures in layman’s language by notable authorities on ethics, philosophy, psychology, science, medicine and travel was sponsored by the club and held on 150 nights each year in the lecture hall. Speakers would lecture, show foreign and scientific movies, and demonstrate their knowledge in such a way as to foster the club principles of “adult education”: a means by which knowledge may be efficiently shared by one and all regardless of one’s degree of formal education. Bernard would often lecture at the Open Forum on Vedic literature, especially the Yoga System of Patanjali, a scientific scheme of mental and physical development evolved from the early Indo-Aryans. Many sources have paid tribute to Bernard’s understanding of his subject matter. Here are Bernard’s credentials as described by Dr. Potter, “He is a most amazing and vari-colored personality. He could lecture on any religion with singular penetration and discernment. He knew the human body, anatomically and every other way, to such an extent as to amaze veteran surgeons and physicians. Perhaps the most amazing fact about him is that he knew the theory and practice of Yoga best of anyone in this country.” In addition to the Open Forum, the CCC ran a small theater company called the Inner Circle Theater and the Theater of Much Discipline, which created many unusual productions. Amongst the townspeople of Nyack the CCC Circus was fondly awaited each year. Acrobats, tumblers, jugglers, wire-walkers and clowns performed, all under the CCC Big Top, the largest privately owned tent in the US. The highlight of the circus was the a performance by the CCC elephants, nine in all, including “Old Mom” a legend herself, all of which were acquired and trained by Bernard and stabled on the CCC grounds. The CCC also ran its own semi-professional baseball team and built, in part with elephant power, a 3500 seat sports stadium in Nyack equipped with night lighting and a public address system for the games. Music recitals were also a part of the rich life sponsored by the CCC with many popular and well-known musicians and singers performing there.

Bernard and his library were without peer or precedent in demonstrating and introducing the principles of Yoga to America. Pierre Bernard never intended to be known as a charlatan but always portrayed himself as an “everyman”. He once said, “Yoga’s my bug, that’s all…like another guy goes in for running a Boy Scout Troop or collecting stamps…I’m just a man of common sense in love with beauty.” He taught Yoga at a time when most people in America considered Yoga a cult. Instead of presenting yoga as an esoteric occult philosophy, he showed it as a pratical means to a balanced way of life, translating Yoga’s ancient wisdom into a modern method of human psychological and physical development.

*** Isn’t this a trip that LM could take the above story that create the validation of her delusion?!

So, the big lesson here is we are aligned to the Light, to Shri, to Shiva-Shakti….yet I was attracting these betrayers and enemies into my house, to my puja, and into my bed by my own energy of deception and lack of impeccable integrity. So, to defuse and dissolve the black magic against me is to take away the veils that block the Light. By openly speaking my truth with full humility to each of you, to Christy, and to LM, I expose myself to her mercy or her wrath. With any sensitivity she will feel the Shakti of the Truth in every word of my letter. Hopefully, this will settle her. Please review the letter and let me know any thoughts or edits. I will print it and mail it overnight to LM.

Again, I deeply sorry for any pain or harm that I caused any of you or your families or our coven. I will be super strong now in the Light and will clear any of this black energy from my field and from our circle.

Thank you for your love and forgiveness, and your deep trust and good-hearted beauty,

John

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Dear Laura,

I offer the following to you with only goodness in my heart. For months I thought that you had a serious issue with Anusara philosophy for some reason, and so you were not speaking to me, yet now it is clear that you have an issue with me personally. I greately misperceived you and our relationship for quite some time, which I am now terribly sorry about. So, it is time that I speak up and present my truth to you in hope that there may be some resolution and peace between us.

Somewhere along the way in our relationship you began to believe that I consciously wronged you and others like Daryl and Tiffany. Although you have never expressed this to me, you have expressed this to Daryl’s husband according to Daryl. From what I can gather from Daryl, you believe that I am manipulating and brainwashing her like I have done to Tiffany and Shakti in order to gain power and sexual gratification. As I understand what you told Daryl’s husband, I ruined your marriage and then did the same to Daryl and Gabriel’s marriage.

You and I always shared a love for what is Good, Shri, and Delightful. We shared a love of Wicca, which is grounded on doing that which enhances Nature, affirms the Goodness of Life, and fosters love. We shared our love for Anusara yoga, which is a philosophy and practice that is totally aligned with Wicca on every level. With this common ground of wanting to bring more Light and Love into the world you and I started a small circle to use our knowledge and power to manifest our elevated intentions. Tiffany joined us in this auspicious and sacred endeavor. As part of our rituals you and I both agreed that we would use sexual/sensual energy in a positive and sacred way to help build the efficacy of our practices, which is a common element of most Wiccan circles, as you know.

From the beginning of our circle there was sexual attraction between you and me, and me and Tiffany. This was openly affirmed. You and I both mutually consented to engage as lovers without what I felt to be any attachment or expectation of deep emotional involvement. We came together intimately out of trust in one another and with only goodness and kindness in our hearts. On the few occasions that we were sexual with each other we were both loving and respectful to each other. From my perspective there never seemed to be any emotional attachment on either of our part, and there was never an indication, verbal or in writing, that either of us was getting emotionally attached with the other. From my point of view I thought that we were very trusting and intimate friends who were open sexually with each other, and yet were not possessive with the other.

Regarding your marriage, it was a subject that we rarely talked about and so I really don’t know any details of your marriage or of your ex-husband. I only understood that your marriage was essentially over when we started talking about starting a coven. You never told me, Tiffany or Shakti that our circle had anything to do with dissolving your marriage since we all understood that it was over by the Summer Solstice of ’09. So, do you now believe that the teachings or practices of Anusara yoga caused you to dissolve your marriage somehow although you really didn’t want your marriage to end?

Over the last half of ’09 and the beginning of ’10 Tiffany, Shakti, and I repeatedly expressed our prayers for you to be happy in any romantic relationship that you were involved with. At the end of the year we specifically did prayers for you to find your true love in your life and to have deep fulfillment in a loving relationship for all of your days. I only wanted you to be happy in a love relationship. If you would have told me that you loved your husband and you wanted your marriage to prosper, I would have done anything I could to support you and your heart’s desire. I had no motive for you not to be happy in a committed, loving relationship with another man.

I felt that you and I were completely trusting and open with each other, and that we only wanted ultimate freedom and happiness for each other. I have been completely open with Tiffany that you and I were sexually intimate. I was clear with her that it was a mutual, unconditional intimacy between us, and that we trusted each other without emotional clinging. Even as Tiffany and I were falling in love with each other, she never felt that my intimate relationship with you negatively affected her relationship with me, or with anyone else for that matter. Furthermore, I had no intention of continuing my sexual intimacy with you after Tiffany and I committed to each other in the Spring. So, I did not foresee any future conflict in the deep interconnection between you, Tiffany, and me. Certainly, Tiffany has only been loving with you and continues to wish you well.

Even the last weekend that I saw you and was physically intimate with you at my house, I felt certain that we were both emotionally clear and respectful of one another. We had a very positive time talking that day before I drove you to the airport and you were focusing on the friend who was going to pick you up that day. Through that whole weekend at my house, Tiffany, Shakti and I wished you so many blessings that things would get better with your friend and that you would be happy. There certainly was never any shadowy, selfish, or manipulative intentions involved on my part in our intimate relationship.

Then the Spring came, during which time you and I did not speak and only infrequently corresponded, mainly because I became immersed with my work and touring overseas, and Nashville was hit by the flood, and our lives were simply crazy busy. I am so sorry that we lost touch during this time since I believe that it was during this period that you started to create a negative scenario in your mind about me. Tiffany and I fell in love in the Spring and yet we didn’t tell you or anyone until we returned to the US in May. Again, I take responsibility for the lack of communication, and I am sure that you were hurt by not telling you right away, so I greatly apologize to you.

I figured that once we told you that Tiffany and I were now in a committed relationship you would be very happy and totally supportive. Also, I presumed that it would be totally fine if our sexually relationship ended since it was unconditional. Tiffany and I never thought you would be disappointed or opposed to our relationship.

So, in May it sounded like you were still considering coming to Ireland with us in August. Then suddenly around the Solstice you informed us that you did not want to be part of our circle and that you have issues with Anusara. As by your choice, you and I have not spoken since.

Evidently, Gabriel, Daryl’s husband, contacted you after finding some emails of Daryl connecting her with BSF. It is true that Daryl hid our circle from Gabriel and this deceit hurt him greatly. She purposefully did not tell him because he doesn’t believe in Wicca or doing magick for healing and manifesting Light. According to Daryl this fundamental incompatibility in philosophy to Life was from day one in their relationship and so their marriage has suffered for years, much before Daryl found Anusara or met me. From the very beginning of Daryl’s sharing with me about her marriage, I have been totally supportive of her and her family. If I heard about any of her marital conflicts, I strongly encouraged patience and reconciliation especially for the sake and wellbeing of the daughters. I only wanted their family to flourish. At no time have I ever told Daryl that she should leave her family or do something that would be harmful to the family. Furthermore, I have never had sex with Daryl nor do I ever intend to. I have also not had sex with Shakti either. Christy, you, and Tiffany have been my only lovers for the last couple of years.

So, Daryl and Gabriel have had years of marital trouble according to both of them. The accusation that I am responsible for the demise of their marriage could not be further from the truth. Daryl has made her own decisions about the marriage after trying to work things out with Gabriel for years. I totally support Daryl’s decision to do what is best for her and for her family. I only wish Gabriel blessings as well. I have never even talked to him, so I only know him through Daryl, and she does not speak negatively about him, so I have no reason to wish him harm.

I also understand through Daryl that you feel that I was wrong that I hid the BSF and our intimate sexual relationship from Christy, with whom I was breaking up with in ’09. Yes, I was untruthful and deceptive with Christy about these things, and that was certainly wrong of me. Christy and I have always been good friends, and we broke up in a very harmonious way, so we continue our friendship in a very positive way as of today. She is supportive of my relationship with Tiffany, and I am supportive of her relationship with her boyfriend who she now lives with. Encouraged by Tiffany to clear the shadowy past of deception, especially with our loved ones, I recently revealed to Christy about my sexual activity in the Summer of ’09 and apologized to her for any dishonesty. It has not been easy to look at my shadows. Yet, I want to clear any of my patterns that lead to harm, and to improve my character as a man. I never meant to harm anyone when you and I became sexually intimate back in Montreal.

I have openly shared all of this now with Daryl and Shakti. They only wish peace for everybody too. No one is wishing harm to another. Revealing our private relationship has forced an open honesty which has illumined what needs to be healed. And it provides a fresh chance for all of us to use our will in ways to clear suffering and make the auspiciousness grow.

So, this is the truth from my heart. My only intention is to create good in the world. I have no interest in creating hate or evil, or doing harm to anyone, especially you. If you feel that I have wronged you in some way that I am unaware of, please express to me your heart. As always, I wish you only happiness and love. Earlier this year we were very close. Out of tens of thousands of friends, I trusted you fully, more than almost anyone else. I felt that our deep friendship was mutually healing and inspiring in many ways, and for that I will always be grateful.

So, now I only hope for peace with you. Please communicate with me so that we can bring harmony to this situation. I fully realize that you do not wish to have any relationship with me in the future, and that is fine with me. I just want you to know my truth and accept that I never meant to cause any harm to you and anyone else. I hope that you clearly see that I am open to examining my faults and to improving as a person, and so I am open to your feedback without maliciousness.

Respectfully,

John

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